Sunday, March 31, 2019

A 12 Year Quest -- My Story

On a quest, through the desert.

(credit: Assassin's Creed – Origins;
Thick Skin Side Quest –
Crocodile, Hyena, Vulture Locations)
Last week I started a new job as Principal Modeler for Cyber Risk at Risk Management Solutions (RMS).  This is HUGE, coming after a 12 year quest that was far from easy or certain.

I don't normally post personal stories on this blog (or elsewhere) but today feels like the right time for this particular personal story.  I'm writing this as a way of connecting to my community, many of whom have shared the ups and downs of this journey.  I don't have any big lessons or advice. Even so, some readers may find this story instructive or inspirational, even indirectly.  I hope so.

Caveats: In this post, I don't individually acknowledge and thank all the people who have helped me along the way.  There are so many, so I will do that separately, both in one-on-one communications and later blog posts.  I'm also going to discipline myself not to write about all the details, all the events, all the feelings along the way.  That would be too long.  I aim is to have a post that is readable and still specific enough to be meaningful.

Even so, it's a long blog post. If this suits you, the story continues below.

Sunday, March 24, 2019

Personal Mission Statement

Dorothy & Co. on a quest to find the Wizard of Oz
(Originally written in 2004, posted in 2006, prior to my entry into Information Security metrics/risk, and prior to my 2010 entry into the PhD program for Computational Social Science.  Then as now, I view InfoSec metrics + risk as the practical domain where this mission will unfold.)

My personal mission is to make value visible in complex organization systems – private sector, public sector, and social sector.

I am on a quest for breakthroughs in our theoretical and practical knowledge regarding the qualitative dynamics of meaning, structure, and value.

I feel this is my duty, responsibility, and calling.

I value individuals and want to enhance their creative thinking abilities.  I value human society, and want to help organizations and society manage the ever-increasing complexity we are creating and living.  I value the world, and want to help us live more gently in our world.  I expect to both increase our knowledge and increase our humility.

I will be an explorer of this uncharted world; a courageously creative thinker; a mid-wife for the ideas and creations that are waiting to be born; a caretaker for the fragile ideas before they are made substantial; an evangelist for a cause; a laborer getting done what needs to get done; a community builder to support the people working in this area and drawing support from them; and a witness – part of the universe looking back on itself.

To fulfill this personal mission statement, I will focus on the journey and the process, and share the fruits with the world along the way.  The material benefits will be used to support my family and me, and to support my personal mission.

I believe this mission will draw on all of my talents, challenge all my capabilities and energies, and require steadfast persistence.  I face uncertainty and risk, and potential failure, disappointment, and delusion.  Knowing all this, I commit myself completely.